February just say Hi...

Assalamualaikum,

 i love February...
seriously...
of course now with some addition for April too...
but for 7 years back, i always eager when it turns to February..
why?

because, February..
a month that me and laling temok officially be a couple..

But today, when it turns to February..
i just don't know how to feel..
how to cop with my feelings..
the feels is different..
scare, worry, confuse..
but i always pray for the best..
everyone else do rite..?
always hope for the best..

i want to skip to the mid of February..
no,no,..
i want to skip until 16th February..
can I?

this is fate..
already written in LohMahfuz..
i need to be strong..
decision has been made..
has been approved already..
i need to put a smile on my face
yes, when i said that it means finger cross activated!

i hope i'm not sound too serious..
i do not want you to be misunderstood..
but for the moment, i need strength..
please pray for me..

for God sake..
it is for good deeds raihan..
please open up your mind..

today is Friday, and i hope all my prays will be listened by Allah..

i'm just ordinary people and currently have unstable emotion..
please don't blame me for all this writing...
thank you for reading..
i hope i will have strength to blog what it's all about...

till then,
live life to the max and have a nice day.
salam